Would you call it pre-excitement jitters or anxiety?

To start; I have pretty mixed emotions right now I have been crying, laughing, and relaxing so much within the last 48 hours just trying to find ways to quiet my brain and the anxiety in my chest.

I had a polarity session on Friday that opened my mind and calmed a great portion of that anxiety but it still lingering a bit poking the bear. But the session was extremely healing. Then on Saturday night which was last night, I had some folks over for some drinks and laughs. It started with skating in the basement to singing and having gelapeno rolls in the kitchen, into my crying then my other friend crying and a lot of pep talks. Which I think was extremely needed to remind me why I am doing this.

Today I woke up went and got pampered at the nail salon to clean up my feet and hands before I dive into some hard work.

So I am getting all packed up tonight! Had to wait for some medications to get through and finally the medication gods saved me from another nightmare!

Everything is put out in the dining room ready to start getting put into my compression bags and settle down some more anxiety.

But first, SMOKED WINGS FOR DINNERR